My name is Janneke Hellebrekers and I am from Holland and I am living currently in the South of Spain.
My real surname is in English: Hellbreaker. I truly feel that I came out of hell and that I am now living in paradise. Was it actually hell or did I just created this all myself in my mind to figure out I was actually already living in paradise all the time?
I grew up in a place called Heel, in dialect it was called Hael, it is prenounced as hell. It felt to me like hell growing up, but only after my thirties it became a place to heal and come back to.
I left it in my twenties for the big city and started to search myself. First I searched in the outer world and I lost myself in booze, parties, festivals and men. I felt strong in my job in helping people at the Social Service and on sportsfields but with my family and in relationships I did not feel powerful. I did mostly what my family, my partner, my bosses and society expected from me. At one point I was smoking and drinking a lot and my weight reached almost 100 kilos.
And then I got a burnout from work when I was 29 years old and for the first time in my life I could not stop my thoughts anymore and i had to go within. With yoga and meditation I felt for the first time my own energy and the whispers of my heart and soul and it was a true liberation for me. From then I knew I did not needed anything anymore from the outside world to feel a certain way. I started to listen to my heart and were it would take me. I dived into a lot of spiritual information, books, workshops, healings, retreats and courses. Over the years I did a Kundalini Yoga teacher training, Ankh Healing courses, a massage course, Tantra courses and a channeling course. At one point I quit my job and house, let all my belongings go and I went to travel to South America. I found myself there by sharing my gifts with the people and having several profound psychedelic experiences. I was giving Yoga, meditation, massages, workshops, dances and Ankh Healings and the people were loving them and me. For the first time I felt seen, heard and loved not only because of what I was sharing, but also, because of what I am, my being. I found there so much love within myself and everybody that I wanted to share that with the people I loved most and i came back to Europe. Being back in Holland I felt at home within and I was at peace with were I came from. After that I went to Portugal, where I lived in several off-grid paradises. My last community where I lived turned into a cult, that I had to flee. Recently life brought me to the South of Spain where I live with my beloved partner, that I met in the cult.
l feel empowered and free in all aspects of my life and loving myself more and more each day and l would love to assist you in finding the power back over your life!
